My Show in Gallatin Gateway: Landscape and Experience

LANDSCAPE & EXPERIENCE: A ROADS UNWOUND PROJECT – JUSTIN SMITH

When we dream up an image of a landscape it is often a two-dimensional scene, void of depth and texture. By experiencing a landscape we learn of the expansive latitude of its personality. Seconds can separate sun from snow, calm from a gale, bringing the wild and divergent of a landscape into view. To me, a wild landscape is anywhere foreign, unusual, and unknown. Adventuring into these environments reveals a person’s untapped capacities to interpret and learn; ultimately, opening one’s eyes to the world. Two years ago I set off to explore my unknown capacities in foreign landscapes by attempting to cycle from the Beaufort Sea in Alaska’s deep north to the island of Tierra del Fuego in Argentina’s deep south. Through experiencing the extremes of divergent landscapes, I wanted to filter the extremes within myself and extract a clearer perspective of my place in the world.

During the two years of dreaming and planning, I viewed the trip as a linear path simplified into essentials – bike, drink, eat, sleep and allow life to become an experience of the places I roll through. Between July 30, 2010 and May 5, 2012, 9 countries and 8,500 miles passed beneath my tires, seeing me from the Arctic Ocean down to Costa Rica. Viewing it as a linear and rational process was divorced from the reality of my malleable moods grinding up against the best our world has to offer. Landscapes dazzled and wildness growled, and the trip unwound with as many undulations and changes as the lands I was traversing. At times I was so filled with adventure and bliss and peace that I felt exposed to the intimacy of our earth, simultaneously tranquilized and enlivened – a Zen statement of extremely Zen experiences. Yet, at other times I was so filled with dread, fear, frustration, pain, and confusion that I felt pebbles were mountains and I was an ant on an impossible journey. My experience, exposed here, laid bare the power of every landscape and forced upon me a new understanding of the trip, my goals, and my dreams. I adapted, grew, and became open to the changes that unfolded. I stopped and started many times, as a response to my dual needs of money and emotional sanity.

I was reinvigorated, last fall, with an invite to ride Cuba with Nathan, a Brit I randomly encountered in the far north and traveled with through most of Alaska and Canada. Together, we pedaled through Cuba for a month, and then twisted across the Yucatan and Guatemala visiting the great vestiges of the Mayan Empire. Soon we both became ensconced in a high altitude Guatemalan city. Four months later I set off to see the trip out on my own accord. Isolation found me even on the most crowded Central American roads and in their cities, and I ultimately realized that the experience had been unwound, the process completed. So, in Costa Rica two months back, I saw the end of the trip in a much different reality than the one I initially imagined. Learning to interpret and adjust my life course in conflict with my distant and divergent goal was harder than learning to sit on a saddle and pedal for 6 hours a day. And, while the destination may change, the process of getting there is always the same, one pedal stroke at a time. Exposing my experience is about bringing life and dimension to the landscapes I witnessed, giving depth and texture to a bold concept, and humility to an adventurous soul.

The Exhibit

The Grocery Store - Gallatin Gateway, MT
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The Grocery Store - Gallatin Gateway, MT
Alaska Pipeline (3.5' x 16')
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Alaska Pipeline (3.5' x 16')
Arctic Coastal Plain (3.5' x 16')
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Arctic Coastal Plain (3.5' x 16')
 
"What does it all mean?"
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"What does it all mean?"
 

Photography and Descriptions

Beaufort Sea & Oil Barrels: July 30, 2010 - Mile 0Beaufort Sea & Oil Barrels: July 30, 2010 - Mile 0
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Beaufort Sea & Oil Barrels: July 30, 2010 - Mile 0
 

Before I even laid down my first pedal stroke in the deep north of Alaska, I was exposed to a theme that would run the length of my trip. On a security guided tour from Deadhorse, for a ceremonial toe-dip in the Arctic Ocean, the rugged and expansive landscape was interrupted by the scraps of man. While listening to our Exxon-Mobil guide describe the gentle touch of the drilling behemoth and the high priority they place on keeping the environment safe and clean, we were driving through the scraped, dredged and scarred coastal plain to be placed next to these rusting oil barrels. No matter how hard I tried, or how much I imagined parts of my remote adventure being divorced from human contact, I was always tied to the thread of our roads and the reminder of our sweeping presence on our planet. These roads, sometimes paved bowling alleys 8 lanes across and sometimes dusty jeep two-tracks, were my connection to the world, my lifeline, my route, and also my enemy. My trip weaved together the large open landscapes with the societies and cities that sprung up in their folds. I witnessed first hand the interaction between the wilds and our meager attempts to tame it. More often than not, it looks like all we leave behind are rusted out oil barrels.

Day One - The Arctic Coastal Plain: July 30, 2010 - Mile 15Day One - The Arctic Coastal Plain: July 30, 2010 - Mile 15
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Day One - The Arctic Coastal Plain: July 30, 2010 - Mile 15
 

A breeze laps at my skin, keeping it dry of sweat, but neither forceful enough to burden my pedaling, nor to distract and obstruct the famous Alaskan mosquitos. I am fortunate to discover they are fading from their mid-summer glory just a few weeks past, but these helicopters are capable of out-sprinting me on my loaded bike. I am shaky with trepidation for the long and unknown road ahead, and I am shaky under the new burden of a bloated bike. The truckers plying the Dalton Hwy to service the remote oil-fields in northern Alaska are eager to wave and honk. I can’t take it all in, the significance of the trip, the importance of this first day, the landscape I now ride through. Like this expansive coastal plain, everything seems to go on forever with nothing to provide depth. If I was ever in need of an ally, I have found it in the steadfast grace of the pipeline, for it too is plotting its way south through Alaska. Because I want to explore this great big world, what better way to start than at the top terminus of such a great big landscape.

Hay Bale - Robson Valley, BC: September 27, 2010 - Mile 2730Hay Bale - Robson Valley, BC: September 27, 2010 - Mile 2730
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Hay Bale - Robson Valley, BC: September 27, 2010 - Mile 2730
 

The pace of travel on a bicycle is exactly that of the pace of advancement of fall as it signals the cold edge of winter. Colors began to diverge from greens, tans, and blues a month back while rolling through northern British Colombia. Yellows, reds, and oranges are now burnt into the landscapes of my mind. Even with so much change in the air, a cold death approaching, fall is a sedate and peaceful time.

Banff National Park: October 1, 2010 - Mile 2850Banff National Park: October 1, 2010 - Mile 2850
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Banff National Park: October 1, 2010 - Mile 2850
 

The local rumor was that the early Autumn snow in Banff and Jasper National Parks had scared all but the steadfast locals into hiding. Those same locals, an adventurous and gracious couple in Prince George, redrew our map to detour through the parks following reports of a perfect week of weather. The 3 week and 750 mile detour down the Icefields Parkway transitioned the trip from a point-to-point undertaking to one of exploration and adventure.

West Coast - California Barn: December 8, 2010 - Mile 4230West Coast - California Barn: December 8, 2010 - Mile 4230
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West Coast - California Barn: December 8, 2010 - Mile 4230
 

The West Coast and all its scenic vistas, crashing surf, and towering redwoods only stirs up soggy memories. I cannot separate where I was from my experience; I was washed down the coast, my nightly solace atop my dry sleep mat was more like a raft than I care to remember. It began with a freak snowstorm in Washington that had me riding through 6 inches of slush on my way across the Colombia River to Portland. And, it finished with a drizzly ride across the Golden Gate Bridge into San Francisco to ring my self out with a friend’s hospitality. For all its glory, the West Coast was a grey and lonely place for me.

Fog & Trees - Highway 1, California: December 12, 2010 - Mile 4485Fog & Trees - Highway 1, California: December 12, 2010 - Mile 4485
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Fog & Trees - Highway 1, California: December 12, 2010 - Mile 4485
 

I quickly learned that we often can not see the bigger picture within the fog of our current situation. Knowing that with each pedal stroke I was one closer to another small goal, was frequently the only way forward. My time was reduced to the key essentials of movement and survival (water, food, and shelter), but I found solace in this routine. When these small achievements were no longer enough, it was the greater goal of an arrival in windswept Patagonia that burned a passion to keep moving forward.

Bike and Road, Wyoming: July 22, 2011 - Mile 5285Bike and Road, Wyoming: July 22, 2011 - Mile 5285
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Bike and Road, Wyoming: July 22, 2011 - Mile 5285
 

It is hot on the high plains of southern Wyoming under the relentless scorn of the summer sun. Having taken a small break from the trip to resupply my bank account, I was now on a quick ride from Idaho to Colorado in hopes of re-sparking the fire for my bike adventure. I struggled on the West Coast and dreamed of a new awakening when I snaked my way through the rugged Rocky Mountains. There were dusty roads weaving over sage covered hills, steep grades climbing between towering forests of Aspen and Fir, and remote landscapes tattooed with the ink of flash-floods. I rode through the Great Divide Basin perpetually parched and more isolated from human contact than at any other point on the trip. Sleeping in the dry desert air is humbling, doing so after 80 miles in 90 degree heat is invigorating. By the time I reached Colorado I had found my strength but not my reason, and I considered laying down the bike indefinitely.

Havana, Cuba: November 2, 2011 - Mile 6440Havana, Cuba: November 2, 2011 - Mile 6440
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Havana, Cuba: November 2, 2011 - Mile 6440
 

Havana is a step back in time to mid-century glory. Aged american cars roll far past their last days. A city slowly decays with the neglect of time. People infuse the air with a vibrant latin energy. At night, parts of the city feel like remnants of a war; buildings crumbling, streets dark and deserted, life dripping out of doorless hovels like a black and white film of another time. In the old quarter, day or night, the city breaths a caribbean charm, dances on your ears with latin rhumba, and presents itself like an advertisement for rum and cigars. Cuba’s tumultuous history was hard to grasp through the clouds of exhaust in the air or on one of its many beaches, but on a bike by day, and in someone’s home by night it slowly revealed its stark story.

Palenque, Mexico: December 2, 2011 - Mile 7300Palenque, Mexico: December 2, 2011 - Mile 7300
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Palenque, Mexico: December 2, 2011 - Mile 7300
 

The Yucatan Peninsula – in which I include Mexico, Guatemala, and Belize – was a flat and hot oasis of eclectic villages and cities, simple hotels, and some of the richest archeological history in the world. Editing out the chorus of Mayan sites to a unique blend of four was a practice at appreciation without over-exposure. Tulum lay two mellow days (including a flat front tire that sprawled me across the roadway) away from Cancun, and was a picturesque sea-side tourist resort, complete with lifeguards and a beach. Chichen Itza was a few scorching days west, and contrary to its newly acquired wonder-of-the-world status, was overwhelmingly fake. It felt manicured and polished in the best Disney aesthetic, making it a struggle to uncover and appreciate its importance. However, down the road and into the foothills of Mexico was Palenque; resplendent as its buildings climbed up and down hillsides and carved out pieces of jungle. It was at once grand and overwhelming and remote and secluded, revealing the best of Mayan planning and a landscape’s interaction with a city. Visiting the Mayan ruins of the Yucatan cycled my life interests of architecture and design into the folds of my trip.

Contemplation on the Beach - Jaco, Costa Rica: May 2, 2012 - Mile 8500Contemplation on the Beach - Jaco, Costa Rica: May 2, 2012 - Mile 8500
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Contemplation on the Beach - Jaco, Costa Rica: May 2, 2012 - Mile 8500
 

Looking out at the Pacific Ocean, I reflect on the 8,500 miles that got me here. They did not unfold the way I imagined, which is exactly how I imagined the adventure would be. There were great vistas, beautiful sunsets, stunning beaches, and towering mountains, but I have recently felt that these landscapes are losing their luster and I am losing my passion to cycle on. Riding the emotional swells of the trip is becoming commonplace. This time, however, I watch as the waves are breaking through my motivational clutter and I realize that the trip has fulfilled me. Instead of dreaming of my South American goal, I am looking on towards new adventures.

A sampling of photographs and stories from my trip will be on display for a grand opening of a new exhibit space, The Grocery Store, in Gallating Gateway. This is an opportunity for me to reflect on my experience, and find a small bit of closure as my life is quickly moving forward. I recommend leaving off your socks, as I expect the show would blow them off your feet anyway.

Coming in hot but buffeted by snow

More has happened in the three weeks since my return to the states than could have happened in months of bike travel. I had a job offer in my lap less than 24 hrs after landing in Denver, and made the quick turn-around to be back in MT as soon as possible. First, I snuck up to Fort Collins to congratulate my cousin on his graduation from CSU. Then, I climbed back on Surly Sue and spent a good chunk of a day riding from Denver to Colorado Springs with my sister’s boyfriend, Brian. We made it as far as Monument before taking refuge from a spring thunderstorm in my favorite coffee house, Seranos (hand roasted coffee on the premise). From there I connected up with the Sante Fe trail that runs through the Air Force Academy grounds and down to Colorado Springs. The trail was soggy, and the temps were a million degrees colder than anything I had dealt with in Central America. Because of the rain, I had the trail to myself, and was in heaven. Mud, dirt, grit, determination, pain, chills, burns, and a warm shower, fire, and hot tub at the end. What was all that bike-touring, self-mutilation, all about?

I came in hot to Bozeman and was fortunate to overlap with some good friends who were also visiting town. Our go-to brewery, the Bozone, is under remodel, but 406 stepped in to fill the void and give me a place for a welcome back toast with some great friends. An apartment had slipped into my lap about as effortlessly as the job, and I spent a few days moving in and tracking down all my random things about town. I can’t complain about being able to sit next to the duck-ponds along the Galligator trail with a steaming cup of coffee, or a cold beer. I am thrilled at my new place.

At work, Medicine Hat Inc. (that emblem stitched to my black fleece that was a curiosity to so many on the road), was in a pinch on a project deadline and I jumped right into throw sparks and mold metal. Having settled into a permanent room, my body finally found its chance to rest, and I was flattened by some illness. It overlapped with a trip to Rapid City to congratulate my step-sister on her graduation from HS as Valedictorian (which I misspelled at first, but since I am not in those highly intelligent ranks it doesn’t concern me).

The irons were in the fire when I got back to work last Monday and didn’t subside until the varmint trailer was delivered this Saturday. Long days (14 hours) in glorious springtime Montana were the name of the game. By glorious I mean, cold, windy, wet, and snowy – damn, it sure was good to be back. We had a special project and deadline for the client that we were involved with before I departed on my trip 2 yrs ago. It was a great opportunity to get back into the thick of things; get dirty, use muscles not required for pedaling a bike, and make some outrageous stuff. In ten days we turned a flat-bed trailer into a customized mobile gopher hunting platform. On Saturday, when we delivered the trailer, I was able to see the finished pre-fab house that took some of my blood and sweat, but also funded the first section of my adventure. It is an amazing project.

Life is throwing things at me in rapid succession, which I take as a sign that I am supposed to be back and moving on with the next stage. I don’t know what all this will result in, perhaps a move to Boston or Portland, but just having options and deciphering the value of each one on my future is a pleasure I had forfeited towards the end of my trip. I don’t feel lost and alone, and that is immeasurably important. Oh, and I can pick up my road bike with one hand, smile, and take a picture of some snowy mountains on a new loop ride around Bozeman!

A recurring theme brings an end to the trip

Making an exitMaking an exit
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Making an exit
 

Twenty-one months, 8,500 miles, 8 countries, 1 remodeled kitchen, 2 bikes, and countless invaluable experiences and I am hanging up the bike and returning to other life pursuits. Back on the road after a wonderful break in Xela put me face to face with a recurring reality. I don’t particularly enjoy the life of a bike traveler. It has shown me some amazing parts of the world, and taught me a lot about myself. While I set out with the intent to reach the bottom of South America, I have wavered on the reality of that destination for some time. Now I am acknowledging that I am not receiving enough in return for all the effort (emotional, mental, physical) that I am applying to the trip, and want to invest all of myself in other endeavors.

Did I find everything I was looking for? I can’t say, since I didn’t set out in search of anything other than a unique adventure. Through all the verdant green valleys, steep hills, drenching rain, and scorching sun, when the adventure was all around, I was learning a great deal about myself. The discovery that I was capable of riding such distances, or endure such challenges, wasn’t groundbreaking. I have always lived a life of biking, skiing, hiking, climbing, and always approached them as limitless endeavors. What I did discover was a greater self-awareness, confidence, and a clearer understanding of what makes me happy.

An attempted smile on the hot Costa Rican roadsAn attempted smile on the hot Costa Rican roads
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An attempted smile on the hot Costa Rican roads
 

Recently, I was thinking about how I feel as at home in the bowels of a street market bartering for a scrap of grilled meat, or a bruised piece of fruit, as I do walking into a McDonalds and scarfing down a meal. A life of travel has finally resulted in me feeling closer to a citizen of the world than ever before, but am I an asset to anywhere? My wandering touches many lives, and hopefully motivates many people, but what am I contributing? My time in Xela let me see the strength of lasting relationships, and had me questioning why, if relationships are so important to me being happy, am I living a life of solitude on the road?

Committing to this trip also opened up the opportunity to remodel 2 different kitchens and participate in a unique pre-fab home in Montana. It was fun, and they turned out well. I like making and designing things for people; fitting since I have a Masters in Architecture. The wood passes through my hands and turns into a functional table or cabinet and changes how a space is used and viewed. Miles on a bike computer or pictures filling up a memory card don’t have the same result.

San Juan del Sur, NicaraguaSan Juan del Sur, Nicaragua
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San Juan del Sur, Nicaragua
 

In the end I was putting forth the effort and going through the motions like it was a torturous job. The flowers that I would stop to smell had no scent. The sunsets that I would watch with my feet buried in the sand and my camera in hand had no luster. Look at beautiful sunset, alone, take a picture to post to your website, check. Ride 75 miles in blistering heat, check. Admire your strength and resilience, smile at your tan lines, check. Cook more pasta, splurge on an onion and jalapeno for flare, check. Drink Coca-cola because you damn well deserve it and it tastes heavenly on a hot day in Costa Rica, check. This was no longer self-sustaining; what you put in comes back in the new sights, sounds, experiences, and excitement for what is ahead. My tank was not being refilled by these experiences.

Having committed to this decision, doors are opening faster than I can get through them. The world is certainly conspiring to make sure this is the right choice at the right time for me. I hold no regrets. The trip fulfilled my thirst for adventure and gave me a stack of memories; good, bad, and everything in between. What could have been doesn’t matter because what will be is much more important.

Kitted up for a chilly morning ride on Sue with a snow-capped Pikes Peak in the backgroundKitted up for a chilly morning ride on Sue with a snow-capped Pikes Peak in the background
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Kitted up for a chilly morning ride on Sue with a snow-capped Pikes Peak in the background